When I got there she looked very upset. I asked her what was wrong and she started to cry she told me that she was pregnant. I just couldn’t believe it. I told her she shouldn’t joke about things like that. But I took one look at her face and I could see she wasn’t joking. I mean she had gone on the pill as soon as we had started getting serious about one another. We had both thought we were being responsible about sex and now this. I thought I was in a bad dream and I would wake up and she would tell me everything was all right. I asked her how many weeks did she think she was. She said she was about seven. I said how that would change everything about our backpacking plans, but she just shook her head.

“I’m going to have an abortion.”
“But you can’t.”
“Look I’ve been really thinking about it. It’s the only option; what with our finals coming up and then going to Australia. A baby at this stage was never on the cards for us.
“Why not?”
“I’ve my decision made. If I don’t do it in the next few weeks it will be too late for me. And my friends say it’s our best option. It would ruin our lives.”

I couldn’t believe how I went from shock and being numb to being angry, very angry and hurt. Up to now we discussed everything. Even our trip away was talked about over and over again until we both agreed with everything. And her friends knew before me. This decision was being taken away from me.
I didn’t know what to do. I never had thought of having a child but here we were now in a right mess. Somewhere inside, I wanted to tell people so that they would be on my side and we could prevent this. I thought, just thought it could work out ok. But Amy just didn’t want to know about it. And there were all these feelings flooding me.
I just walked away.

Then I saw an ad on the telly about crisis pregnancy and they gave a number to text for a list of different organisations. I texted them and opted for CURA. Amy said ok she would go with me but that her mind was already made up. This was really putting our relationship under pressure despite how much we cared for each other. We weren’t able to discuss this without she being angry and me being hurt. I made the appointment for us. We both saw the counsellor separately. Amy came just once. She hasn’t continued. But I have so that I can try and understand what has happened between us and why I am so angry. The talking has taken the panic out of it for me and is giving me time to come to terms with all of this. CURA has given me thinking time with out any pressure. I am finding it easier to say what I feel and I know that what ever I say is in complete confidence what ever the outcome.